Now that it is going to be a year since i've been married I look back and see that a lot has changed! But this change is acceptable and predictable to an extent because change is necessary if a long lasting marriage is desirable
However one thing that doesn't change and is irreversible is your marriage week! I am sure there are more things that do not change but this is one that came to my mind.
This one week before your wedding is very crucial for all brides and grooms... you can mess it up and regret it for the rest of your life! Or you can deck it up and cherish it for the rest of your life. I belonged to the former group. How unfortunate! In fact I was warned by an older cousin and I still messed it up
I was told not to take any responsibilities but just sit back relax and dream about my wedding day and days that follow but unfortunately I decided to get involved in everything that was going on... took too much load... wanted a say in everything and I was not happy with anything. Now I realize that the reason for all that was the nervousness inside me. I had too many apprehensions and a feeling if all this was worth it. Every time we went shopping I had a heavy heart seeing the amount of money spent on my wedding. So much pressure to look fair and pretty! What not?
But now when I think about it all that tension was unnecessary. My parents were more than happy to spend on my wedding and they always wanted me to have the best as if this was their last chance to get me things that I wanted. I should have just enjoyed their love and care for me instead of worrying!
I worried about my brides maids. I knew each one of them personally and my family cared for them and was more than happy to have them around. But still I worried about them. What a waste of time! I should have just trusted my family for taking care of them and my friends for being adjusting like always
I was so worried about my looks too! Ha ha...
Jokes apart... the message I am trying to convey here is that don't take up responsibilities during your own wedding. Even if everything is not in place on your wedding day you will not know about it because you will be busy smiling at everyone :) So might as well start smiling a week earlier.
I lost a lot of weight worrying... fought with my parents for very silly things. Thankfully they knew that it was my frustrated mind and body which caused all that unrest. There are days where I really wish I could be a bride once again and enjoy my most beautiful day!
